Monday morning blues

Today is 15dpiui & I finally POAS this morning only to start my day with a...

BFN :( I was so very disappointed but kind of expected it! I guess all my "symptoms" were due to the Prometrium after all?! Thank goodness I can stop taking that medicine for a couple of weeks & get my "Ladyville" back to a dry, pleasant environment once again :)

I am supposed to have my beta drawn tomorrow but I'm beginning to wonder what is the point!? I have been feeling bloated & crampy all day so I can guarantee that AF is right around the corner.

I guess when AF shows herself we can begin round 2 of injectables!? I can hardly wait for the injecting to begin - NOT!

Feeling "symptoms"

For the last 4 days, I have been having these symptoms - or maybe I am just crazy!? Who knows...

-Breast tenderness
-nausea
-fatigue
-bloating
-slight cramping
-frequent urination

Could it be pseudo PG symptoms or just the side effects of the Prometrium?

Ugh - this 2 week waiting game is dreadful but thankfully it is almost over! I am supposed to have my beta drawn on Tuesday & that day can not seem to come soon enough! Knowing myself, I will probably break down and POAS before that!?

Keeping my fingers crossed...

One of those days...

I am officially done with week one of the 2-week-wait-limbo. It went by quickly which I am glad about & hopefully next week flies by also. My sister & 4 mos old nephew are coming to KC on Friday as well as my mom so I will be busy this upcoming week preparing for their arrival. I hope to also be distracted by their visit this next weekend so I don't obsess about wanting to POAS everyday!

Friday turned out to be one of those "hormonal" kind of days - at least that is what I am blaming it on! First thing I hear when I get to work is that one of the nurses on the floor is pregnant & they had only been "trying" for 3 months. Later that day, I get on Facebook & I find out my cousin has posted that she is pregnant. Her first one isn't even a year old yet & bam, just like that she is PG! Then that evening, I get a text from my BFF who is 20 weeks pregnant saying "It's a girl!!!" I'm beginning to wonder how much more I can take today?!

Now don't get me wrong - I am extremely happy for each girl & their situations but today I can't help but feel resentment & sadness when I heard their news. That may be rude of me to think like that but I'm sorry, I just can't help it - I am just keeping it real. I am going to chalk it up to "it's just one of those days"!

When I got home from work, I told my husband that my cousin was expecting & he said "wow - that must be nice to be able to get pregnant so easily"! The disappointment I heard in his tone shocked me! At that moment I realized that my infertility is affecting my husband too & that made me even more sad that I have failed to recognize his part in all this.

I guess I forget that this just isn't all about me!?

Started Prometrium

So this morning I started the Prometrium per my RE's orders. It is supposed to help create a nice comfy, sticky, lining in my uterus so that a fertilized egg can implant & set up shop successfully for 9 months.

I got out of the shower, toweled off & then proceeded to insert one of those capsules up into "Ladyville". I was a little anxious about it since these capsules were big & I was worried I wouldn't get it up there far enough & it would fall out. Lucky for me, it turned out fine. No big deal.

Fast forward 2 hours later. I am in the middle of a procedure at work & I start to feel unpleasantly "damp". I go to the bathroom to investigate & I don't know if it was just an abundance of cervical mucous or if it was the melted progesterone capsule but whatever it was it was not pleasant to say the least. I am assuming it was the Prometrium.

So, for the next few hours I proceeded to feel damp & untidy down south & all I could think of was that I have to insert another capsule when I get home this evening as well as 2 capsules everyday for the next 14 days!?! Nice...

So, after work I made my way to Walmart to pick up a box of pantyliners & some feminine wipes to tidy my damp-self up with.

It never ceases to amaze me all the stuff us ladies have to go through to try & have a baby...

Inseminated

Well, today is insemination day. Started the morning by "obtaining" a sample from the hubby & as I was racing out the door he says to me "Oh, I see how it is...love me then leave me" :) Yep - pretty much.

As I sped down the highway with my hubby's swimmers safely between my legs, I was praying that 1) a cop didn't get me for speeding and 2) that the hubby's sample was a good one!

I dropped off his sample & waited in the waiting room for 45 minutes as they prepared the sperm. The IUI went smoothly & was over & done with before I knew it. In less than 5 minutes, there were 10 million sperm swimming around in my uterus. After it was all said & done, I laid there for 10 minutes & just prayed.

And now, the 2 week wait begins....

Triggered

This morning I had my CD 10 US & we were surprised to find out that the right ovary had 3 follicles measuring 18-20mm. I thought for sure I had a few more days of injections before I would be ready to trigger!? There were a couple of small follicles growing on the left which the RE found odd but not concerning. So, with those measurements he told me to go ahead & trigger tonight & we will do the IUI Monday morning. But since the hubby wasn't going to be able to make it to the appt on Monday morning our RE bumped the time up for us. I am to trigger this morning & do the IUI tomorrow (Sun) morning followed by intercourse Sunday night.

So, after the appt we went home so I could give myself the last injection for this cycle of Ovidrel & then we headed to breakfast at our favorite place - Mom's Kitchen in Olathe - for some awesome food.

Hoping the Ovidrel does it's job & that we time all this just right!?

Follie check

Today is CD 8 & I am on day 5 of injections.

I started off my morning with a large cup of coffee & a date with the "dildo cam". Nothing like starting the work day with a "scoot down please" & a "your gonna feel some coldness & slight pressure" :)

The US today showed 4 follicles around 11mm on the right ovary & 1 follicle @ 10mm on the left. Uterine lining was measuring 5.5mm and E2 level was 151.

The NP said this is a good response & everything looks like it is progressing nicely so that is exciting news! I am to return on Saturday morning for another US & another blood draw.

Keep on growing follies!!!

Injection Club

I am now officially a member of the "Injection Club".

For the next 13-14 days, I will be injecting myself in the abdomen & the outer thigh with 100iu of Follistim in hopes that it will stimulate my ovaries & produce lots of egg-bearing follicles. Since I had a poor response with Clomid, I am praying that I respond with this & end up with a BFP!

Let the injections begin....

CD2 appt

Had my CD2 appt this morning which involved having a baseline US done to make sure my ovaries didn't show any cysts as well as had my FSH & Estrogen levels drawn.

The FSH level is the one I was most interested in. This number lets them know what your "egg reserve" is. Considering my age & our infertility issues I was praying that this number was within normal limits. If it is higher than 15, you are S-O-L with ever having children of your own. Anthing less than 9 is a normal, healthy egg reserve.

The NP called me later that afternoon with these results:
FSH - 7.7
Estrogen - 54

Woo hoo - I still have some good, healthy eggs left in me! What a relief! I am now in the clear to start the "injectables plan"!

Finally, some good news!

Finally...

After 2 negative HPT's & a very LONG 40 day cycle, AF has finally arrived!

Who knew I would be so excited to be starting a new cycle!? Even though I am looking forward to starting injectables this go-around, I am NOT looking forward to giving myself the injections! I'm hoping they aren't painful & that I don't mess it up!

Wish me luck...