Friday turned out to be one of those "hormonal" kind of days - at least that is what I am blaming it on! First thing I hear when I get to work is that one of the nurses on the floor is pregnant & they had only been "trying" for 3 months. Later that day, I get on Facebook & I find out my cousin has posted that she is pregnant. Her first one isn't even a year old yet & bam, just like that she is PG! Then that evening, I get a text from my BFF who is 20 weeks pregnant saying "It's a girl!!!" I'm beginning to wonder how much more I can take today?!
Now don't get me wrong - I am extremely happy for each girl & their situations but today I can't help but feel resentment & sadness when I heard their news. That may be rude of me to think like that but I'm sorry, I just can't help it - I am just keeping it real. I am going to chalk it up to "it's just one of those days"!
When I got home from work, I told my husband that my cousin was expecting & he said "wow - that must be nice to be able to get pregnant so easily"! The disappointment I heard in his tone shocked me! At that moment I realized that my infertility is affecting my husband too & that made me even more sad that I have failed to recognize his part in all this.
I guess I forget that this just isn't all about me!?